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[a long pause, here. and then she kind of coughs a bit.] - ah, it's working?

[...]

...Um, yes... hello. [clears her throat.] This is Asano Rin. You can leave a message if you need.

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What?

[allucinator]

[A pause.]

You ever wanted to forget? Not-- not all the time, but sometimes?

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[She... nods. She wants that, all the time.]

I know what you mean...

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[Then she gives him a bit of a shake with the arm she has around him.]

But letting someone you don't completely, absolutely trust into your head for any reason is a bad idea.

[allucinator]

[He laughs softly.]

I learned that much. But if he can-- he can do somethin' to help without gettin' in me head-- wouldn't that be worth it?

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You could get really drunk... it'd be permissible just one time.

[allucinator]

[He laughs more genuinely this time.]

Can't, didn't I tell you? Nothin' works on me-- no drugs, no alcohol, nothin'.

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... I hadn't realized.

Well, what else would you think he could do?

[allucinator]

Christ, I don't know. Fish em out and put em in a jar-- that's what they do in Sirius' world.

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Why can't he do that for you?

[allucinator]

He don't have the-- the technology or somethin'. I don't know.

[A pause.]

He put a spell on me once. Tried to make me remember all those we'd lost in Edelweiss. It didn't work, but-- Christ. He would do anythin' for me-- for us-- if he thought it'd help.

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... I still don't think you should ask Madara for that. Even if it's a relief - it's not real. And regardless of what we think of him, we shouldn't rely on him too much.

[allucinator]

[He glances over at her.]

If he offered, would you take it? No strings attached, nothin'-- just a way to forget when you wanted.

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... It wouldn't be real. And Jack, how d'you know you could choose when you wanted and when you didn't, finally? Or if he'd give it back when you wanted? He has a mind of his own too, and his own motivations.

[allucinator]

That's not the point right now. If you could, if you knew it'd be safe, would you?

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... I don't know. Maybe.

[allucinator]

You could be the person you were before. No madness, no fears, no paranoia every time you stepped outta your door . . .

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Jack, listen, I messed up. You shouldn't think that you'll get it all the way you want it, if you ask him for too much.

[allucinator]

What do you mean, messed up?

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... [Rin pulls away from him a little and curls up with her knees to her chest and her forehead on her knees. Muffled, slightly:]

You remember when those girls picked on me at school?

[allucinator]

Yeah.

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I posted to the NV because I needed someone to pick me up... well, Madara came and signed me out. And we walked, and we talked, and I was so angry... I made something bad happen to those girls. He did it because I asked him to.

[allucinator]

[A pause.]

How bad?

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[She sits up a bit, lifting her eyes to glare at him a bit - not angry at him, exactly. Just, brimming a bit with misdirected, uncertain agitation.]

I never asked exactly what he did and he didn't tell me. I said I wanted them to leave me alone, and right after that, they did - they were still at school and everything.

Well, I'm not going back next year, and I asked him to take it off them because it was a stupid thing. It was stupid and selfish and something I should have dealt with in the first place, with my fists if I had to. And I'm not proud of myself for doing it. And he said he did, but... it took some arguing.

[allucinator]

Why, what was his reasonin'?